Early Morning Jibber-Jabber

I thought I will be able to see the sun rising from here, I guess not. My flat on the fifth floor I thought was high enough to give me a nice view of the sun rising with the rest of the buildings in the vicinity being short but all I saw was hues of blue and some pink and there it was the day turning on like a light bulb. Why do I vividly remember being able to see the sun popping out when I was younger? Was it my childhood imagination or is it that the nature has also decided what a waste of effort it is to inspire someone from this city. A city where the biggest miracle of life has lost its value, becoming part of everyday collateral damage why would the sun bestow its grace? Oh but it scorches throughout the day being right there all gold and blazing hot? Then why not unveil its serenity in the gentle delicate manner in the hours of day when people wake either because they to get inspired, are too disturbed or parent a child too young to have a predictable sleep schedule. Which one am I? Why was I seeking the sun? I guess I don’t know but latter sure was the reason why I woke up in the first place the prior perhaps why I couldn’t go back to sleep.

خیال

اجیب لگتا ہے کہ یہ خیال بھی دل میں آیا 

کہ تو نہ سہی کسی اور کے لٴے بھی

یہی سب تو کرنا ہوگا ہی

Found this entry dated April 2012 ...   Titled "dedicated to STEP :)" 

لاحاصل کی تمنا کی

لاحاصل کی تمنا کی

ضد بھی کی، بہت ضد کی

خود سے لڑے، اوروں سے لڑے

ہاتھوں کی لکیروں سے لڑے

آنکھوں میں خواب ستاروں کے

خواہش میں پھول بہاروں کے
  میں ہم لے کر چلے direction 

چاہت کے دیے انگاروں کے

سب پا بھی لیا، پر کھو گئے ہم
بیاپارِ دل نے رکھا نہ بھرم

چادر،ہستی، روح و زعم

سب تول دیا پر نکلا کم

لاحاصل کی تمنا میں، لاحاصل کو جب پا ہی لیا

دل نے بلاخر تب جانا، لاحاصل کیوں لاحاصل تھا